Lazy?

From the time my son was born I have been burdened by this idea of being lazy, I chose to be a stay at home parent partly because I could afford to & mostly because I felt his first few years were too fleeting & important to pay someone else to handle/experience no one would love or appreciate it like I could & did but I lived slow & still try to & in a fast world spending an hour playing with lego & two hours at a park seems to be considered wasteful & indulgent, it isn't  getting qualified or making money & right now I'm feeling a push, when my son turns six I must be engaged in some useful activity 20 hours a week or loose centrelink help & it drops to next to nothing once he turns 8 this presents a big problem when I have real estate currently not willing to rent me something over 35% of my income so $380 a fortnight this is supposed to stop people living in a state of poverty mostly it just leaves them with nowhere to live & as it is proven I live well on 40% of my income to cover food bills & fun (maybe not as much fun as I'd like, more book money would be nice) but the point still stands & it's really scary having to fib & apply with a friend or try to build my business on nothing.

Eek tangent must stop that.

Back on track
I have been told by several people that I'm the least lazy person they know, hard to believe when you're being told that normal is working a 40+ hour week & less than that is a failure or a luxury, it really makes me appreciate the first 3 years of Trystans life that we were free to spend the first hour or 2 of the day taking care of animals & the garden with no rush to get anywhere.