Today the sciatica which has been acting up for over a week making walking without way too much neurofen & neurofen with codiene nearly impossible was almost better, got up with only a twinge & took an hour to decide that a few pills for the anti-inflammatory would be advisable, Tryst & I ran errands in town & went to the park & watched water dragons, he so wants to see them up close but he runs up & scares them off so today we practised sneaking & watching & if they started to move stopping & stepping back & as such got a good view, me must have looked loopy but who cares really.
I had a bit of bad news from the bank, apparently loans are only available to people with enough money not to need them so in essence to bowwow a thousand i need to have $600 more income per fortnight to which I replied that if I had that much extra money why wouldn't I just save it & not bother with banks, no aparently I can't afford to live on my income full stop let alone borrow money.
On with that I know I have been poor most of my life & it on occasion makes me loopy for security, I so want a house that I'm not just paying out 50% of my income into paying their mortgage & never going forward myself it seems so unfair
But the fact is I do live & easily & well even with my garden producing nothing, maybe I have less "needs" than other people or maybe I go without perceived nessesities I don't know what people can be doing to find $2000 a fortnight slim living when I live on $450 after rent & before bills.
better stop before a full on greed money evil tangent gets going.
I remembered that I have a lot of sock yarn sitting not even skein-ed & spent some of the evening with Tryst skeining as he loves the swift it was a good way to wind down, I'm waiting on some dyes but I still have some & at a suggestion I think I will make rainbows, sock rainbows, chunky rainbows, dark, light & neon rainbows .
Oh & it's my birthday in a week & a day, I feel unreasonably old most of the time, knowing I need to save "X" amount or never get a house loan or that I must meet my fantastic-stable-not-a-violent-angry-looper-man in the next few years if I'm going to have more children, I have good reason to be old for my age, being a mum to my siblings when my parents couldn't, being an oldest child full stop nevermind a mum at 18 & single mum by 20 but I need to relax & hope that if I stay calm it will come together & stop feeling so bloody old & see if my 24th birthday can yield some fun not suitable of a 50 year old widow :P.
I wish I could think of something positive to say. I wish I could afford to give you $600.00! I guess many of us have been there, the daily slog. Just waiting for something to happen, waiting for the right chance to come along. I hope you have friends close-by for support & ideas. If you were in Armidale I would suggest you take a table at the two markets held here to boost your sales. Anything like that where you are?
ReplyDeleteTake care my Friend.
Keith.
I try to get to markets but I don't drive, once I do I'll be taking my yarn to byron & the channon & find out where else is good.
ReplyDeleteI realised I will be able to do a bit when my bond comes back & when my housemates pay their share (600) I'll be fine to make the order I want which was going to be around 1200, I just thought it was unjust & stupid that in order to borrow money you need to have enough not to need to borrow.
I also created listings for the socks I resell today while tryst had a friend around.
I don't have a lot of people full stop really most are in armidale, if I didn't hate the place I'd move back some weeks
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